(Rosemarie Pena)

Ilse Moellgaard, a Danish child, survived the holocaust but never fully recovered from the experience.Neither have her four daughters. At six years old, she watched her father murdered in her home in Kiel, Schleswig - Holstein. She was separated from her mother, brother and sister and placed in a concentration camp. When war ended, she was released to an orphanage in the English Occupied Zone. Refusing to be restrained, desperate to find her family, she escaped from the orphanage, called herself Elsie Thompson, and became known as a displaced person.

She hid in bombed out houses and later did domestic work until she managed to meet George Larey, a US Soldier who married her and brought her to Texas in the late 1950's where together they had two daughters. She had given two daughters up for adoption before leaving Germany. One was the product of rape by one of her employers.

I discovered Ilse unwittingly in 1994 and had the privilege of hosting her in my home for two weeks. I got to know and love her in the next few years but it wasn't easy. When she died in 2002, we were not speaking. I didn't know until 2004 that she had died. Her daughter, whom I had never met called to tell me the news.

Ilse was my mother. She died estranged from all four of her daughters. In a video interview of Ilse on her deathbed, she acknowledges only the two daughters born in the US. She had been searching for her oldest daughter that had been given up for adoption before she died. She planned for many years to tell her story but her dreams were never realized. I will be her voice.

I have met one of my sisters, through whose efforts we have recently found another. Though I have become acquainted with my youngest sister via phone and video, we have never yet met in person. We are still looking for the eldest of Ilse's daughters..My sisters and I share a dream of finding our remaining lost sister and visiting Germany together to get to know our mother and uncover the lost details of her life, perhaps to meet extended family members.

My personal challenge is unique from my sisters and reuniting has not been a cakewalk. I am black, my sisters are white. Since I was the product of rape, it is doubtful that I will ever know the identity of my father.

While I felt different from my family since I can remember, my adoption was only confirmed when I was about 38 years old. It was then that I discovered that I was a part of a group of children who have been referred to as the Brown Babies, Kriegskinder, Mischlings; mixed race children abandoned after WWII, who were either raised in orphanages in Germany or adopted by African American families in the US. I belong to the latter group. Although I was born in Germany, Ilse was considered a displaced person, so I came to the US as Staatenlos, a person without a country .

After finding my mother, I discovered an organization called the Black German Cultural Society, Inc., which was established by other Black German children born after WWII. Our experiences vary as did those of our birth families. I have been the president of BGCS since 2005 and have lectured both on the Black German Experience and Blacks and the Holocaust. We have been working together with Professor Leroy Hopkins to create a collective autobiography for academic purposes that contains a portion of my personal story prior to my mother's death and finding my sisters. I have been interviewed in a video documentary cooperatively by professors of NYU and UMass.

The AfroGerman movement in Germany begun by May Ayim and others continues to be documented and the Brown Babies are presently discussed in academic circles by historians. As a group, we are beginning to take our place in history and continue to strive for recognition in the African Diaspora as Black Europeans. We would like our history recorded through our own collective voice.

My personal journey continues. When I met Ilse, I started on the road to self. I have only begun to discover my authentic identity as Rosemarie. I was born of rape in postwar Germany to a Danish holocaust survivor. I was raised as Wanda Lynn, an African American, in the US as an only child by adoring Christian parents who loved me so much, they never wanted me to know who I was or from whence or whom I came.

As noted time and time again, the holocaust echoes today and its tragic implications are far reaching.My mother, my sisters and I are both victims and survivors. Through my personal experience, I offer others the opportunity to view the holocaust through a different lens.
By telling my story, I hope to add insight into the complex issues surrounding the trauma of the primal wound and transnational adoption. I hope to encourage a new look at the concepts of individual identity, nationality, culture and race and war.

Further, it is my greatest desire to bring healing through self discovery for myself, my children, my sisters and others whose lives and experiences may possess elements of my own. I wish to validate Ilse's life and celebrate her strength. I wish to express my gratitude to God and my parents, without whom this story would not be one of survival but tragedy. I want my children and their children to inherit the legacy of a victory over rather than a victim of hatred and inhumanity.

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Kwakoe Amsterdam 2008

Zomerfestival Kwakoe Amsterdam blijft in Zuidoost


Amsterdam Zuidoost, 16 mei 2008

Zomerfestival Kwakoe Amsterdam blijft in Zuidoost

Vanaf 5 juli tot en met 10 augustus bruist het als gebruikelijk op het Bijlmerveld. Met veel voetbal, muziek, lekker eten en diverse culturele activiteiten. Het zomerfestival Kwakoe Amsterdam blijft in Amsterdam Zuidoost en staat dit jaar in het teken van: De verborgen schatten van Zuidoost.

Het dagelijks bestuur van het stadsdeel Zuidoost hecht grote waarde aan het zomerfestival, dat met deze editie al 33 jaar bestaat. En ook dit jaar zal het evenement in het Bijlmerpark plaatsvinden.

Gezien het belang van een kwalitatief goed zomerfestival maar ook gezien de diverse aanvragen heeft het Stadsdeel een zorgvuldige procedure willen doorlopen.

Uiteindelijk heeft het Stadsdeel Zuidoost dit jaar de stichting ZAZO aangewezen om de organisatie van het zomerfestival voor haar rekening te nemen. Achteraf bleek dat niet alleen het stadsdeel moeite had met de werkwijze van de vorige organisatie, maar ook de Standhouders Belangenvereniging Makandra kampte met de nodige problemen. Een grote meerderheid van de Kwakoe standhouders zijn al lid van deze vereniging. Het bestuur van ZAZO heeft inmiddels een zeer goede en vertrouwelijke band met de standhoudervereniging opgebouwd.

Het bestuur van de Stichting Zomerfestival Amsterdam Zuidoost (ZAZO) is verheugd dat zij is aangewezen door het Stadsdeel Zuidoost om de organisatie voor haar rekening te nemen en zal zich inzetten voor verdere professionalisering van dit unieke en oudste multiculturele festival van Nederland. ZAZO-voorzitter Melvin Tjoe Nij: “We streven ernaar om het festival dit jaar verder te innoveren. Verder is het onze ambitie om het festival te doen uitgroeien tot een groot evenement met internationale allure voor bezoekers van alle etniciteiten.

Het zomerfestival biedt nog ruimte voor inschrijvingen van voetbalteams, stand en kraamhouders. Natuurlijk is ZAZO ook op zoek naar vrijwilligers, omdat het anders niet mogelijk is een dergelijk evenement te realiseren. ZAZO opende deze maand hiervoor haar nieuwe kantoor aan de Keienbergweg 5 op het industrieterrein Tradepark Zuid Oost. Het kantoor is dagelijks geopend van 10.00 uur tot 18.00 uur waar de stand-/kraamhouders en de vrijwilligers zich kunnen inschrijven voor dit unieke festival.

Voor meer informatie kunt u contact opnemen met:

Stichting ZAZO
Keienbergweg 5
1101 EZ - Amsterdam Zuidoost
telefoon: +31(0)20 365 04 50
fax: +31(0) 20 697 76 80

Conference for Women of the African Diaspora in Amsterdam on 27 July 2008

From the Netherlands Europe,
Just a quick note to let you know that there will be a conference for Women of the African Diaspora in Amsterdam on 27 July.

It will only cost 5 euros and is part of a larger outdoor festival happening the same weekend.

If you can come to Amsterdam this summer please save this date!

More information will follow soon.

Love and Light from the Netherlands Europe,
Sandra Rafaela